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Jun. 10th, 2006 @ 04:51 pm i'm outta here
Current Music: coheed and cambria
i'm swtiching back to my old livejournal for a while called emo0punk05

You Belong in 1974

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!
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Apr. 21st, 2006 @ 02:26 pm in my deepest darkest sins I will choke the beast within...
Current Location: Lincoln at condoms house
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: I think condoms doing a bright eyes song
I've been coming up against people with theories of an uncontrollable animal inside them. They say a part of us is no different than the animals. I strongly disagree. To imitate our higher power rather than our finite selves seems to work. I'm hella twacked out by Kelsey covering a great fall out boy song while trying to keep my min on live journal. I've been going the easy route and play motel myspace. I CHECK IN AND CHECK OUT. Theres no deep conversing, more like, 'dude whats your nasty nardo doing?', then 'nothin' whats crack.' Just back and forth I really miss having the internet at my house so I can go on livejournal for long periods of time. I'll be back soon soda jerks.

P.S- My spiritual awakening is beautiful
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Mar. 2nd, 2006 @ 06:13 pm One thing I need y'all to know: I came I saw I conquered
Current Mood: happyhappy
Current Music: Encore-Jayz/Linkin Park
I've been digging the jay Z/Linkin Park song encore latley. I went to Oregon this last weekend to make amends to my grandparents in Oregon. I now feel drinking is no longer an option for me. This journey can be a battle or a peaceful process, but drinking is not the awnser. God bless
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Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 01:34 pm Sluttering
You Are Rain

You can be warm and sexy. Or cold and unwelcoming.
Either way, you slowly bring out the beauty around you.

You are best known for: your touch

Your dominant state: changing
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Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 01:22 pm Just as he hit the ground, they lowered a tow that stuck in his neck...
Current Mood: angryangry
Current Music: Mars Volta- Bah Humbug
I'm lagging on my ninth step. I don't really see it as my fault, but I know it is. I'm blind to self knowledge because its usually only the stuff I wanna know. I'm at com and meeting with my newly sober old friend along with someone else for a short time. I've recenley been becoming my old self: dry sarcastic, Insultive, juvenile. It really sucks because it comes out at the people I love. I've never thought about drinking more than I did yesterday. I felt like all I was doing was hurting people, then when I didn't get invited with some friends to go do something I figured I should crawl back under the rock I came from. When I drink I'm a hermit. But things went good, I prayed to my higher power and went to the goodwill with my dad in San Fransico, talked with my sponsor, and a few other people. I'm going to Eureka this weekend if all goes well. I have to amend with my grandparents. If my friends can't take me, my sponsor told me to ask other people in the program. If it comes to that I'd rather bus there all alone. But I did tell him I'd follow his suggestions...
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Jan. 30th, 2006 @ 02:09 pm strictly just to get me off of these streets quickly...
Current Mood: calmcalm
Current Music: At the drive-in - gravity
I'm finally hitting a slump in my life. Its not that bad, but I don't wanna go to meetings sometimes. I just wanna stay home and play video games. I go anyways and it helps to have commitments everynight, but Monday. I've been listening to michael Jackson a lot and have been recording at Alex's house. I'm on my ninth step and have to go up to eureka to amend the harm I did to my grandparents. I have two weeks to do it and have no idea how I'll get up there. But my sponsor told me 'have faith it'll work out,' and that subtle reminder is the key stone to this amends. I hope everybody is getting through life. I realize now that I can't always be happy because I'm imperfect and to me that is perfection.
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Dec. 28th, 2005 @ 01:42 pm today is the greatest day I've ever known
Current Mood: geekygeeky
Current Music: I WANT TO TARE YOU APART- she wants revenge
I've been getting feelings of childhood all day long. The good feelings when I use to go adventuring in the hills all alone or with my dog. That serene feeling is attractive. I've gotten to repay my dad the last few weeks by being a sober, son to him and him being a sober father for me. I hate the topic of gratitude in meetings because it usually lulls me to sleep. For a week almost EVERY meeting has had gratitude as a topic and I tried really listening and found out its not so boring. I belive my higher power shares what I'm lacking or need reaffirment on in meetings so its suicidal not to listen. Gotta go, at the library I hope my friends are living life and maybe even their dreams.
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Dec. 16th, 2005 @ 01:55 pm (no subject)
Current Mood: awakeawake
Current Music: Mars Volta- Taxt the veil cerpin
I wish I could help my brothers in life. Its selfish, and dishonest so I don't force it. I'm working on new music gradually and finishing old songs. I'm getting a new computer this weekend, and plan to transfer my stuff so i can record it all. I'm thinking of calling the album "the politics of dxm and NA exposed". It features L-MO, Snitches and Bums Inc., Luca and father, and ofcourse me. I'm having a good day. I was walking from the canal to the bus station after meeting with my sponsor and I was praying to my self to get a ride 'cuz it was SOOO cold. Low and behold I got a ride from a fellow in the program all the way to my house. Thats it for now. Have a good day.
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Nov. 30th, 2005 @ 04:01 pm its not the same no more..
Current Mood: listlesslistless
Current Music: Vitamin B
the therapy we've undergone to reconcile differences has left me in the ditches digging holes to barry innocence. I can no longer stare into the sun burning my eyes while I sit in melancholy throwing up over my pride. It was 4 years to the day we'd run our asses from the jake while eating herbalizer cakce, but then I got dun sent away and since then everything has changed. No longer looking to get laid wanna find out what I have saved. Got a reason for beliving that my life is getting better. Got a feeling from my homie that his life is in the crapper.

Vitamin B
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Nov. 26th, 2005 @ 06:43 pm you speak in tounges/tremors that warn us of our selves
Current Mood: anxiousanxious
Current Music: bright eyes
I'm at a point in my life where I'm trying to understand my self as an animal. We (as people) observe animals and can figure out their habitat by their habits. I'm the glaring_punk because every morning I wake up (ofcourse) and hate that blue sunny day. I glare at people unintentionally, but threateningly. I wish I was born with sunglasses. My life is fucked up, but
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